Chapter 1
Keep your eyes closed.
Sarah Sullivan had been telling herself that for the last ten minutes. She shifted slightly, getting uncomfortable.
“Don’t move.”
“Sorry.”
Sarah clutched at the thin fabric covering her torso. It was August, hot as hell, but she was freezing. Normally she longed for the night stars, but right now she’d rather have the warmth of the sun shining on her instead.
As hands pressed on her inner thighs, spreading her legs and exposing her, a tear managed to fall out of the corner of her eye. With her eyes closed, her mind filled with all the images that kept her awake some nights.
Blood. And begging. Screaming. And stars.
Sarah, help me!
She still didn’t open her eyes. Doing so would only trigger a different set of memories. She didn’t need to see. There was a white ceiling and harsh lights. The smell of antiseptic filled her nose.
“How are you doing?”
Is she going to be okay?! My baby! My baby girl! Is she going to die?! Oh, God, Sarah! Sarah it’s mom, can you hear me?
“I’m fine.”
Sarah steeled herself against the invasion, her stomach tightening. She fought off the instinct to close her legs. The urge to vomit was harder to suppress.
Did he rape you, Sarah?
Not this time.
But his fingernails had scratched her and caused her to bleed. It had taken a long time to get comfortable with Chris fingering her again.
Til death do us part, baby. I’ll wait my whole life for you to be ready if that’s what it takes.
More tears fell and she wiped them away.
I can’t give you what you want, Chris.
You are what I want, Sarah. You’re all I need.
“Sarah.”
But, Chris, what if I never-
“Sarah. Open your eyes.”
Sarah took a deep, steadying breath. The weight of a dozen disappointments were making it hard to breathe. She felt as though she would suffocate underneath them. Or break.
She opened her eyes. Her vision blurred as fresh, new tears sprang forth. She blinked and they spilled like tiny raindrops.
The technician moved the monitor so Sarah could get a better look.
“That? That right there? That’s the heartbeat.”
The dam inside Sarah burst. Her chest expanded suddenly and she could finally breathe again. She sobbed jaggedly. The technician calmly handed her a box of Kleenex.
Never say never, baby.